This is an attempt to write.
This is an attempt to think.
It is an attempt to think in another language.
It is an attempt to unlock thoughts exiled by language.
It is an attempt to write the unsayable.
This is an attempt to soothe the mind caught between speaking and silence.
It is an attempt to articulate the unwritable.
This is an attempt to remember the unsaid.
It is an attempt to recall forgotten words spoken.
This is an attempt to forget.
It is an attempt to abandon unwritable words.
This is an attempt to forget the unwritten words.
This is an attempt to forget that I forgot to write things down.
This is an attempt to cast away the desire for writing.
This is an attempt to say something.
It attempts to reassure myself that I have spoken without saying anything.
It is an attempt to say something without leaving anything behind.
Preface:
In the performance-poetry series, each poem acts as an algorithm for a performance. The poem remains incomplete and meaningless without its execution. Therefore, a poem is composed or selected specifically for performance. Words are integral to the performance, and conversely, the performance activates the words, much like a silent gene.
In this performance, each piece written on a paper scroll is destroyed upon completion, only to be re-expressed in a new form. This mirrors a poet’s process, where each new idea overwrites and eliminates the previous one. As each piece is written, the sound of the scratching pen is recorded and looped until the performance’s end. Consequently, the more the scroll is unrolled and written upon, the greater the volume of the looped sounds becomes. Thus, the destruction of each piece persists as sound during the creation of the new one, with the looped sounds synchronizing in parallel with the act of writing.